Doozer,
on 4/20/2009.
Part of the reason I haven't been posting as much lately is because of work. I've recently received what might seem to be a promotion, but is in fact a horrible nightmare. It's kept me from spending a lot of free time posting and doing inane randomness online.
In times of economic turmoil, such as we're experiencing these days, one might think that a "promotion" is a good thing. Job security and whatnot. Now, part of the reason I'm using quotes around the word is because there has been no change in my compensation, so I'm hesitant to call it a promotion. Instead of extra money, I've been given a lot of extra stress, so maybe it evens out that way.
The problem is that I've sorta asked for it. I hadn't been used in a capacity that I was happy with for the last year or so ... filling in on other projects, not really being of full benefit to my own career or improving my value with the company. So I'd started talking with some people higher than me to see if I couldn't nudge things back into my intended direction. Instead of a gentle tap, I got a massive shove, and now I've been pushed ass-backwards into a position about 2 steps above what I was originally looking for.
Not only did they put me into a higher position of responsibility and authority than I expected, but they also did it at a time when a lot of shit needs to be taken care of. Emphasis on LOTS OF and SHIT.
So now my days consist of dreading going to work, then going to work, fighting with clients most of the day, then going home, stressing about the days fights for a few hours, then stressing in anticipation of the next day's fights, and then falling into a restless sleep knowing that it will all start again the next day.
I'm not sure how long I can/will go on like this, but I'm pretty sure something's going to give sooner or later. I just don't know whether it will be sooner or later.